Saturday, December 29, 2007

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

follow up

well, today, we brought the mother to see her veryvery sick daughter to the hospital. i managed to clock in another 5 hours because of this but it is a really lousy feeling. its really disheartening to see the son declaring that he's got no more mother or sister anymore. then why come to the hospital ey? mom apologised about the past and requested that he take care of his sister if she dies. her final favour before she dies. well.... son remained arrogant and defensive. he only wanted to blame others and portrayed himself as the hero. grudge, guilt, unresolved issues and many other factors snowballed into one dying human being (he's got muscular dystrophy and so does the sick sister). its just sad to see a family breaking up when they can only make things better by being together in this trying time. how can one be that heartless to a mother who's asking for forgiveness? i'll simply melt if any of my parents say sorry (its reallyreally rare. dad has NEVER apologised to me, ever. even when he knocked a mug of boiling water over my hand. 'sorry' doesn't exist in his vocab, how sad).

i didn't realise that today's episode can be so draining. emotionally, physically and mentally. you just can't think anymore about it because its just beyond your means.

thankyou God for not doing this to my family, Alhamdulilah.

have a good weekend! i'm off to batam for a day trip. *winks*

35 hours more to go!

+ > the glamour babe posted at 5:43 AM < +

Friday, December 28, 2007

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

she died?

okay, just found out from a deardear friend that benadzir bhutto died. kinda predicted that this will happen but nevertheless, she made it into history baybeh. remarkable education background but a totally screwed up leadership i must say. how can someone so educated be so corrupted ey? shot at the neck and chest and died at the public hospital. some of her supporters caused a riot at the hospital while the rest cried. what the?!?!?! riot? third world country huh? can't really say that coz these kinda riots happen in the 1st world countries too (with less bloodshed, of course).

today has been one of the most humbling days of my life. i thank God for putting me where i am. i realise that no matter how your parents can be nice to you or polite, if God wants you to turn out like shit, you will. i also see the side of parents that reminds me that i can do more to mine. thus, i informed them that i was going out for coffee (more like teh halia at the usual spot) after the session. heh!

today, i see the side of singapore that the gahmen has been very cunningly covering up from the whole wide world. i thought the lady living by the beach with her 2 kids for FOUR years was bad enough. this time, i saw a lady living with her depressed (not confirmed but its highly likely that she is) daughter. rubbish strewn all over the kitchen floor and around the living room, the smell and lets not mention the toilet. the social worker sahbo-ed me and insisted that i take a look around. curiosity got the better of me and i went all the way to the common toilet door. afterwhich, i raced back to the room where the lady was. it was simply repulsive. we were expecting a dead body coz there were blood droplets that formed a trail from the bedroom to the kitchen. apparently, it was just a cut. *shrugs* for this, i thank God for giving me this hostel for the time being. heh!

+ > the glamour babe posted at 4:34 AM < +

Thursday, December 27, 2007

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

internet doesn't like me

how come i can't reply on my tagboard? i can't tag other ppl too. sheesh! anyways, zahira, if u're reading this, u're most welcomed to join the team. i'm the lousiest player around, seriously. heeh! i go there for the exercise only. coach has got us into gear again aft the many slack trainings. its back to 2.4km warm up runs again (yes, warm up), static trainings and ballworks that can just smash my already brittle wrists. don't worry, there'll be more at the training, i'm only telling you the nice things we do *wink*wink* there're also alot of KC girls (the coach coaches there if i'm not mistaken). oh..... another thing! you crushing on someone izzit? heeeeh!

well! i'm very slowly clocking in the hours but if i don't go faster, i'm totally screwed la. i'm taking another week of break from the assignments (holiday mood too strong la) and aft that, its all workworkworkwork till end of feb. i-really-want-to-do-well-and-get-this-trimester-done-and-over-with.
hrmph!

mum thinks we treat her apartment like a hotel. HAH! BLOODY HAH! what makes her think that her crappy apaprtment can even be compared to a HOTEL. even a budget hotel is more inviting and cozy! haaa! her apartment is no more than a budget hoStel okay. where everything is communal, public and dirty. that's why i only come back to sleep. even my small rented apartment was more cosy, clean and welcoming than her *$%^hole here. pfft!

+ > the glamour babe posted at 1:57 AM < +

Monday, December 17, 2007

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

my fingers

i wanted to throw my tidbit wrapper out of the window as my friend was driving just now....... i opened the window just a little so i can dump the wrapper and i quickly wound up the window.





i ended up with half my fingers trapped out of the car and half in it.

*so me*

ps: lets not mention asian idol okay. its not his fault for winning. its the voters' (or those who didn't but still cared).

+ > the glamour babe posted at 3:25 AM < +

Saturday, December 15, 2007

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

breathe again

it has been a truly hectic 3 weeks of my life this year. heaps of assignments given and due around the same period, the threat of one of my module not being marked (i didn't attend the lecture and wanted to withdraw but it was too late to withdraw and i still had to pay the full fees. i decided to go on with the assignment and proposed that i be judged on the quality of my work, not by my absence. yeah, the absence was an issue but we'll see how it goes. i hope i can do it so i'll be done with at least 2 of my 4 electives).

besides the assignments, i was helping out in organising the children camp. it was a blast (because i didn't have to handle the kids). heh! i had fun but it was super duper draining mentally, physicall and emotionally. oh wait, not emotionally. i'm all numb there.

so yeah, i hope all goes well from here.

PS: don't forget to fast for hari Tasyrik if you want to score point with Him! heh! but seriously, you need to perform the fundamentals first.
God bless ya'all!
=)

+ > the glamour babe posted at 4:53 PM < +

Sunday, December 09, 2007

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

day trip

i left for sydney early in the morning and came back at night
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NOT!

bloody hell! it took me two freaking hours just to get to school and another two hours to come back! the bus didn't go beyond gear 2, i'm not kidding you. it was so frustruating that i made myself fall asleep (well, it was not that difficult since i didn't sleep the whole night preparing for my presentation just now). but really, the bus was cruising at a ridiculously slow speed that if i had the stamina, i could've ran to bukit merah and reach there 20mins faster than the bus. sheesh!

well, presentation went well, i suppose. as usual, i was the first to present (as the 1st presenter is marked leniently) and at the end, lecturer said i had set a high standard for the rest. *whew!* thankyou God! thankyou for giving me the stamina to go on, for giving me the talent to just wing it, and most importantly, thankyou for giving me my friend who helped in the presentation by giving me the samples. Alhamdulilah!

i love school.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 12:25 AM < +

Sunday, December 02, 2007

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

=)

attending lectures makes me happy. being drowned in my assignments makes me happy. they're all done away from home. constructive things done outside the parents' apartment gives me a sense of relief and satisfaction.

college buddy's solemnisation just now- i obviously missed it.

hoping that i'll make it for her reception tmr.

*must remember to bring camera!*

+ > the glamour babe posted at 5:08 AM < +